Stepping Out Of Your Comfort Zone

Being comfortable with stepping into the uncomfortable. Being confident in taking one step out of your safe place. Attempting something you have never done before or re-attempting something that once failed in order to grow and develop. Experimenting with something new just to see what happens. Doing it even when you have no idea what the result will be. Stepping out of your comfort zone. It is terrifying. It takes guts.

You hear contradicting voices in your head. One says “I am already proud of you just for making the decision to go for it. You got this!”. And the other says “Are you crazy? What do you think you are doing? This is never going to work”.

The question is: which voice will you let win? Will you stay in your safe place, I am comfortable, I am going to avoid that first step on that scary path? Or will the determined side of you come out and you will decide to go on that walk and explore a new way?

For me, I have had both experiences. As an artist, my comfort zone is… that’s right, you guessed it, patterns. And that will always be my happy, safe, the thing I return to place. It comes naturally to me, it is fun, it is easy. And the other stuff is not as easy. Not that I don’t love it- I enjoy every bit of it. But it takes more time to figure out, more effort, more attempts to make it.

But, it is all worth it. Whenever we start something new, it is not easy, right? But as we practice more and more, it soon becomes part of your comfort zone. It doesn’t feel that terrifying or “omg, I have to do that now” anymore. It becomes a routine. And that walk on a new pathway is actually beautiful, a change for the better, an expansion of yourself and your work.

So I will keep exploring and experimenting as both an artist and person. What about you?

My Inner Critic and Inner Artist are friends

Today (the day I am writing this) was one of those days. The day I didn’t feel like doing anything. Whatever I tried to do, it felt like I messed everything up. The words aren’t coming out right, I didn’t post today, the canvas is not looking good, I don’t want to vlog, and I tried to apply for that opportunity but couldn’t bring myself to. The day my inner critic was at its strongest, the day I feel like giving up. The day I should take as a sign to slow down, breathe, take it one step at a time, but I put pressure on myself to accomplish something. Anything. At least finish one task. Just sort this out already. There has to be something you can complete successfully. I want to go back in my safe cocoon, just hide away and escape from the world.

But then I hear my inner artist voice. A quiet but super strong whisper. Right at the tip of my tongue, trying to get out. So I clear my mind and listen to what it says. It is asking me “what do you need?”.  It is telling me “I am not the opposite of your inner critic. We can actually all cooperate together”.

My inner critic. The one that gives me tough love. The one that tells me that “today your emotions are a little much and that’s ok. You just need a break.” The one that helps me overcome the obstacles and fight the battles. The one that shows me that like life, art is not all black and white. It’s ok to be in a grey area. It’s ok to try something new and fail. It’s ok to have doing nothing days.

My inner artist. The one that says take that pressure, take those expectations, take that fear, take that guilt and turn it into a piece of creativity. Honor those human feelings and give it a little extra love and care. Take that creative risk. Forget everything and everyone else for a minute and do something just for yourself. Cherish these moments without any labels (they are not good or bad, they are not beautiful or ugly), just be.

And so I listen. I listen to both the critic and artist, I listen to my heart and gut and take my next step from there.

The next time you hear your inner critic or inner artist, stop what you are doing and just listen. Let your instinct do its thing. Go with the flow. The answers will come. And you will know what to do.

How I Embraced My Authentic Self and Why You Should Too

I used to be the person who had two personas- the public one and the private one. In public, I used to put on a mask, behave the way I was expected to, say the things that were considered “right” , hide some sides of me because I thought nobody would accept me like that. I thought it was better to be like this than be judged, than open up about my feelings, than have those conversations.

In private, I would be my real true authentic self. The person who I really was, just embracing every strength and every flaw, every struggle and every success, every smile and every tear. I was ok being vulnerable like that with my close ones. 100% Gurm. And that still took every ounce of courage, just in private. Imagine if I had to do it in public. No way!

But then… something happened. The two sides of me became exhausting. It was a sign telling me to stop this act, to take off the mask and show my face to the world. Say to everyone, “this is me, all of me. Accept me or not, like me or not, judge me or not, I am done hiding”.  I am done hiding because that mask doesn’t feel like me, it doesn’t feel right in my gut. I am done hiding because I can’t keep living like this anymore. I am done hiding because instead of feeling content, I feel empty.

And once I took off that mask, you know what happened? I found myself again.  I had the courage to become candid, honest. I made the decision to be vulnerable and show the human side of me. I started feeling happier and more fulfilled. I found my calling. I truly started to enjoy life and understand myself, others and the world.

No, I didn’t do it for attention or likes. No, I didn’t do it for others to feel pity for me. I didn’t do it because that is how it is supposed to be done. I did it because I realized what I had been through is probably what someone is going through right now or will go through one day. I did it because I knew telling my story can help someone, can inspire someone. Even if it touches only one soul, it is enough.

Something you wish you had heard when you were going through that situation, that is what people need to hear when they are going through that same situation. And they need to hear that from you! So take off that mask. Go all in. No matter where. No matter what. No matter the time or place or who you are with. Be 100% yourself and go spread your beautiful light. And remember “embrace uniqueness”.

Reframing Limiting Beliefs: Finding hope during the low days

Limiting beliefs. “I am not feeling the best today” days. We all go through them. I do too, especially as a creator. Being mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually invested in every piece of art I create, the mind has some pretty intense thoughts (both positive and negative) at times.

There are some days that are a total joy ride, I am loving this, don’t ever stop, sunshine, happy days. Then there are other I need to take a break, I need to step away from this, this is getting too much, hands shaking, tears flowing days. And there are normal average in between days.

When I first began my art journey, the mental blocks, the negative thoughts, the criticism really bothered me. I mean REALLY affected me to the point that I wanted to give up before I even got somewhere.

Now, as I am writing this, I realize that I am human. I am content in being perfectly imperfect. As an artist, I choose to be vulnerable and personal and share that with the world. And while I still get those limiting beliefs (less frequently than before), over the years, I have learned to embrace them, the best way to get through a feeling is to feel it. And why not turn that emotion into a lesson of growth? Why not reframe that critical thought into something positive?

Let me give you some examples:

Thought: I am a total failure. That didn’t work. Will I ever be able to create something worthwhile again? What even was the point of stepping out of my comfort zone and trying that new thing? It’s useless. How do I even call myself an artist after this?

Reframed thought:  Failure in my work means I took the step out of my comfort zone, and I learned and grew from it. It does not mean I am a failure. It means I am brave to try new things and explore and experiment. It was a success because now I know what works and what doesn’t.  And it was my first time trying this, I did pretty well. Now that I think about it, it was actually really fun. And that’s what art is truly about: having fun.

Thought: Oh great, here we go with the criticism again. It hurts. They didn’t like it. That means probably no one will like it. So, basically I created a horrible work. All my time and effort has been for nothing. Maybe I should just throw the piece away.

Reframed thought:  Hmm.. that is someone’s perception and interpretation. After all, Art is subjective right? When I put my work about there, I leave it open for people to understand the meaning they want. Not everyone will like it and that’s ok. There are also people out there who like it.

That point is actually valid. That piece of criticism is constructive. I can use it to improve my work. After all, as an artist, I strive to learn everyday. I see now that that is their way of encouraging and supporting me.

Thought: It is not worth it to share my work. Why would anyone be interested in what I have to show? There is so much beautiful work already out there. And my work is different, and that’s weird. No no no, I am not clicking the post button. Bad idea. And plus, it took a while to create that, and people will that as a struggle, they will think I am slow. And I am not ready to share every detail of the story yet, and people would see that as weak. It is not worth it.

Reframed thought: My work is unique, it is the essence of my heart and soul. Is it scary to share? Yes. Is it scary to open up to the world? Yes. I don’t have to share everything all at once. I can keep some of the parts to myself. But I will share the parts and open up with what I am comfortable with opening up about. I will take it step by step and go at my own pace. But that doesn’t mean it’s not worth it. My work has the power to spread beauty, love and smiles and inspire others both creatively and in life. My work has the power to make the world a better place. And it is worth every second of the hard work, effort and struggles. I am confident in myself because I love my work. And that is the most important perspective.

The next time you go into that “not so good” place or your mind starts playing tricks on you, just remember its ok. It is part of your journey, it is leading you to a beautiful rainbow. There is a reason for it. Take a deep breath and look for something positive, something hopeful in it. You got this. And you are definitely worth it.

Don’t Compare, Get Inspired: Overcoming The Imposter Syndrome and Finding Your Tribe

As artists, with every post, we express vulnerability, share a part of our soul. As you create more and more, you become more and more comfortable with that sharing. As you evolve as an artist, your ability to express yourself in a candid way grows. It is symbolic of your deeper inside self.

There’s a part of you that fears judgement, criticism. You are going public with your work and anyone can see and give their opinion, compare you to other creators, say “you could have done that differently”. Forget others, even you tend to go into that imposter syndrome sometimes. Thoughts like “there are so many talented artists in the world, their work is amazing, and look at me- I am nothing”.  You need to overcome that to share your art. I had to come to terms with that.

How did I get to that point where I can manage these feelings, these insecurities much better than I did a few years ago? The connection of humanity. Despite everyone’s talent, we are all people. And that makes us all equal. We all feel the same things, and we all pour those emotions into our creations. We all share our light and uniqueness in the world.

I used to feel that the level of talent, the beautiful creations would be a gap between us, we would have fierce competition, but it actually brought us closer. We could connect easily with each other. Instead of competition, we are each other’s friends and supporters, we find inspiration from each other.

You don’t need be any more than who you are. Don’t compare, get inspired. Stay your authentic self. Your growth and improvement are a reflection of your personality, nothing more, nothing less.

I had to learn how to simply be my authentic self. That’s it. I had to learn how to stop trying so hard to be special, let go of my ego, stop comparing myself to others. I had to go “I may not have the same technical skills as that artist, or I may not be part of the exhibition or magazine that they are part of but its ok”. I am me. I have my own path, my own resume. I can still get inspired and learn something. How did they do that cool color blending? How did they engage people in their posts? How did they convey that message in the work? And what is it about their work that makes me go “wow, I love it”? How is it relatable?

Break away from the artist’s point of view and just look at it like a viewer. Recognize them as human. They are also struggling just like you are. They are also celebrating their wins just like you are. You are no greater or worse than anyone else you admire. You are human. And in the end, that’s the most important thing. Being able to connect from one human to another.

Do artists really know what they are doing? : Breaking the stereotype

Many viewers and even creators beginning on their journey believe that artists know what they are doing all the time. Just make a plan, and execute it. Sure, for some artists, this might be true, but for most, it is not as clear cut as that.

Why does this matter? Why am I telling you this? Because if you attempt something and are not able to stick to your initial plan fully, you think you have failed. You think you are not gifted and not talented. You want to give up before you have even begun. Yep, that was what I thought too when I first started my creative journey. But that is not true. Not true at all.

Even today, when I am about to start a new creation, I know that it might not work. Maybe the color blending goes wrong, or the pattern just doesn’t stand out. Maybe the material is not the right choice for that kind of intricacy. But that doesn’t discourage me, I am prepared for that. And you know what, if it doesn’t work, it is totally ok. Because for me, every work is less about success, and more about exploration.

For me, the process is an initial framework in mind, sort of like a rough draft, a vision. I know the feeling I want to evoke, and I start with that in mind. Whether it remains that way or not, I can’t guarantee. The process is messy, time consuming and sometimes takes you more back than forward.

When does the idea really click, the plan really fall into place? When the work speaks to you. Initially, it is just a pen and paper or a brush, paint and canvas, doing something vague. Then, as time passes, there is a certain point that it comes alive, like you are having a conversation with a friend. Like you are brainstorming, throwing ideas back and forth with your painting. At that point, you can choose to listen to your drawing. That moment where you have that gut feeling, that “I love that” even before your creation is finished.

So do artists always stick to their plans, point to point? No. But does that mean they failed? No. It means they chose to walk their own path, and discover themselves and their works through the process.

What’s the point of creativity anyway?

Ok… so I really need to put this out there. Am pretty sure I am not the only artist who has had conversations with people about this. Am also sure that I am not the only creator to have had this thought in my deep overthinking stage. I was in that stage and had this question pop up in my head- what is the point of all this anyway? These vlogs, blogs, drawings, paintings- why make them? Why share them? Why show them to the world?

I mean… it is just pressing record on a camera, just words on a page, just strokes on a canvas. What value is it adding? What’s the gain from this? It is not like we are changing the world in some big grand way or anything.

I am loving it, enjoying every second of it (of course!), but what’s my contribution? Look at the world outside, dealing with problems of the pandemic, of politics, of the economy, of social issues, of the environment and here I am obsessed with patterns and shapes and colors.  Here I am being vulnerable and sharing my life with you. From the outside, for some viewers, it might seem like a strange way to spend the rest of your life.

Let me give you my perspective. Making my art has made me wiser. It has helped me to understand myself (and therefore others and the world) better. It has make me patient and helped build my confidence. It is my best friend and I am always challenged yet calm at the same time by creativity.

But that’s about me. What are the millions of creators, musicians, writers, artists, vloggers today doing to help the world? From both a creator’s and audience’s point of view, I can say a song, a poem, a video, a dance performance, a painting, is beneficial. It lifts us up and shows us that we are not alone through the tough times. That other people are feeling the same way and going through it too. It helps us celebrate the joyous beautiful moments. It speaks to us and says “I see you”. It is something that unites humanity, embraces diversity and that each of us in our own way can relate to.

Let us celebrate every person who works hard and puts love and effort in to create. Let us thank them for their courage, commitment, and willingness to build something new every day. To innovate without a guide, without a manual, without rules. A journey which has no clear path, and yet because of them, we are all smiling and a little less lonely.

Being Brave With Your Art

With every artwork I do, I try and do something a little different than anything I have done previously. It could be the smallest slightest change or a huge transformation. While working on my latest work, “The Spark”, I got thinking of how much courage it takes to take that small step out of your comfort zone. How when you attempt a new idea, a new medium, a new color, a new shape, a new size, a new pattern, a new theme, you are being so brave. So that led to writing this blog post…

What do you do if you suddenly get an idea that is slightly different from what you usually do? How do you attempt to create something that people don’t really know you for? Do you listen to your artistic voice and inspiration to draw something that is very raw, something that you haven’t done before?


You have two options. You can ignore the above and go running back to safety, to what you know works successfully, to what you are comfortable with, to what the viewers like. Or you can be brave. You can take a step about of your comfort zone, and try that new medium for the first time. You can follow your instinct and create on the theme you never thought you would create on.


You know what? Whatever comes out of you is you. It is still your voice. It is just a different part of you. It just hasn’t come out yet. But now you are ready to create it and show it to the world. So make that mark. Even if it feels weird at first. Before you know it, you will be so comfortable with it. There is always a meaning of what comes out. Trust it.

Creating from Imagination

As a creator, I get inspired A LOT. The spark can come from literally anywhere. Sometimes something catches my eye and I can instantly see that thing in my own style. Other times I dream about it, and when I wake up the next morning, I know what my next work will be. There are times when I have an idea, but that’s it. Have no clue what to do further, until a long time later. There are also times when I just put a paper/ canvas in front of me and go with the flow, let my hand guide me into a mystery creation.

There are times when my artwork is exactly like the picture that I had in my mind when I first started. There are times when it is completely different and I could have never imagined that the end result would turn out like this. There are times when I start with the initial idea and change it midway, or start with a different idea and go back to the initial idea in the process.

The question I get asked often is how I turn that inspiration into an original creation. For me, it is about drawing from imagination, painting from curiosity. It is about building your own pathways from the most commonly used road. It is about using your voice to give a new twist, to challenge the current perspective. It is about looking at a simple thing and asking yourself “how can I make something new out of this?”.

For me, as both an artist and viewer, this is what gives art its true value. Creating from imagination.

“Colors” – The Reflections of Life: My Artistic Journey

The whole process of the exhibition prep and conversations at the opening yesterday reminded me of my whole journey and how far I have come. Such a variety of work spread over 6 years (2015-2021).

It wasn’t always like this. This smiling, being genuinely happy around art, living the artist dream. This full time art not being a job but being on a holiday everyday. This being confident enough to display 80+ pieces at a solo exhibition and talking about it in front of people. This growing and learning through the business side of things and having those open discussions. This going with the flow and being spontaneous. Being known as “the queen of color” and black and white pieces also being appreciated. It’s been quite an adventure to get here.

There was a point when I had declared to everyone around me: “I don’t know what I am going to do in life but I know for sure it is not going to be anything art related “. There was a point that I was so uncomfortable with a pen and paper even when I was totally alone. There was a point when I used to find excuses, find the quickest exit so I wouldn’t have to attend art classes and workshops. There was a point when I used to laugh it off when people said to me “one day you are going to have your own exhibition”.

So what changed? What changed was me struggling with drawing what I was asked to draw to me discovering my own style. What changed was me converting my weakness into my uniqueness. What changed was me answering people giving me weird looks and asking “what in the world did you draw? I really don’t get it” with “It can be whatever you want it to be. What do you see?”. What changed was me realizing that even if no one in the world likes my art, I am ok with it, because I know that I like my art and that is the only view that matters. And I will keep creating for me. Because I love it, and not because I need to prove anything to anyone.

So if you are having those feelings that I did, I totally understand. Because to be very honest with you, it takes a while to get out of that box. But if I did it, so can you. One stroke, one color, one line, one shape, one object, one material at a time. You got this!

PS. sharing some pictures from my exhibition opening. Enjoy! Btw it’s on till the 30th of November if you want to check it out. Everyone is welcome!